As a Child: Reclaiming Your Lost Self

                                                           
“Except  ye become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven”.
The kingdom of heaven in within you, it can be thought of as the New Energies, the energies of the 4th, 5th and 6th dimension, the Paradisal energies that we now stand in and are learning to integrate and blend with the 3rd dimensional energies that we have come here to experience and that are so familiar to us all.
So Jesus is saying that you need to be childlike to consciously experience these energies as a core of who you are. That you will experience the Divine Bliss and expansion of your greater Self to the extent that you can experience your own child qualities, viewpoint and perception.
Crash Course in Child Trauma
As a child you think you are in control. You felr that you were responsible for everything that happened around you and to you. As a child you were totally vunerable but unafraid in the moment because the world and you were closely one and boundaries between things had not been delineated. The world was an exciting awesome place to be explored and the delight in exploration was unbounding and immediate.
However, you were also totally dependent upon adults to take care of you and to give you love. Every child needs love and expects to see and feel it wherever they are. But as a child you soon discovered that you had to look for it because it was often missing when you needed it. So you had to discover what to do in order to get that love. This search has been with us all but in an unhealthy relationship with parents or caregivers as a child you learned to do whatever you could to get that love. When we didn’t  get that love you think “ I must not be good enough” or “ There must be something wrong with me”.
Thus when when parents  are angry, fight, separate, or there is any kind of abuse you would feel “If only I had been good enough, this would not have happened” ,  in some way you would blame yourself. Where your feelings are concerned, as a child, you personalised the experiences in order to make an uncontrollable event controllable. Feeling responsible for the trauma  somehow feels better than feeling helpless because this creates too much pain. So as a child you take the full responsibility for the sad, angry, confused, additive, or abusive parent behaviour. These responsibilities create incredible guilt, shame, and self loathing, down putting,  and self-abuse.
Thus as you grow your inner child gets locked deep within for protection but carries all the fear and hurt with it. It seeps through fro m time to time and affects your whole life and your relationship with others. For safety and to avoid the pain you may isolate yourself, you may hide yourself behind your intellectual faculties, recreate the abusive relationship, or even become the mental or physical abuser, etc. It affects how you interpret events, how you treat yourself, and how you give and receive love.

Bringing Back and Healing Your Child
II therefore becomes important to connect with your inner child because you cannot be fully yourself unless you have taken back and healed the energy of your child and deepen your connection with it. You need their energy and they need your confidence, your “street wise” understanding, etc. You inner child holds the fear and  pain, separation and loneliness, the distrust of self and unworthiness. You hold the wisdom of knowing the 3rd dimensional world and how to navigate through it witout being pushed entirely off centre. You have the understanding and the experience because you know how to keep and take back your power and not feel helpless. The lost child part of you  needs to know this. It needs to know that you have the love and the confidence and the knowledge for its complete safety. This part of you needs to be allowed to express itself fully without the internal and external judgements and any separation from love.
So this fragmented and vital part of the soul of you needs to be taken back into your heart and become the essential part of you that it is. How could you know unbridled, unselfconscious joy otherwise. Joy that makes no excuses for its being. Joy that fills you to bursting and has to be expressed. Joy that thinks nothing of what others may think. Joy that is immediate, full, and unbounding. This is what you are.
It is heaven, where you feel this blissful state all the time unafraid to express yourself and no longer having to think how your  actions affect others because others are dancing to their own music, which is in absolute harmony with your own unique heart song.
And so it is crucial that in order to be more of who you are that you bring back in full consciousness the 4 year old that is within you and that you have buried to protect it from harm.
No one has had a perfect childhood. Triggers in your daily life connect you to the traumas held by that child.  You need the healing in order to step into the fullness of your own space. Your child holds the innocence and purity that you need to move more fully into your own journey. As you realign with your child you will find that the world will be more flowing, you will have more clarity, and feel more complete, relaxed, and whole.
And you move towards the child by moving courageously towards your feeling, and I venture to say, this is the only essential requirement taking back your inner child and for healing.
Some Steps for Embracing Your Child

1. Step out of your dramas. They are over when you say so. It is now a matter of dissolving the boundaries you have created within. Healing the  emotional wounds which are reflected on your physical body.
2. You need to befriend your feelings and emotions. When an event or behaviour of another brings up an emotion stop for a while. Tune into your body and become aware how you are experiencing it. Ask where it is held and what kind of experience led to the feeling.
3. Tuning in. Let your body and your intuition tell you. See where, as a child, it came from. Acknowledge  your child. Show how you understand that it was perfectly right to experience it as you did and they have done absolutely nothing wrong. Tghey have done all that they could do.  Become the confident  nurturing parent to your child  and let them know that you now understand what he/she was feeling.
4. Talking to. Honour your child (the child you were) in the present and feel the deep gratitude for how they have held those emotions for so long for you to reclaim the truth of them now. Let them hear from you that it is all over forever and now it is their time to be full and free .
5. And hold them in your love. Bring them with your hands into your heart. Nestle them there and and let them feel your truth, strength and expansion.

And if you are stuck go to someone for help. Someone who reflects the qualities you seek to take back. Ask them to help reflect back to you your child. A person who will remind you of your capacity to love and who can lead you back to experience so that you can own that missing part of you.
Here are some things to do that will help you feel your child nature as you take her/him back into your opening heart.

1. Above all be more loving, kind, gentle, and non-judgemental of yourself.
2. Do things differently, new, and without having to have a reason, or justification. Think of ways you can do what you do habitually, but  in a different way. Actions that cause you to focus more on what and how you are doing it just like a child when they are first experiencing a new skill. This particularly facilitates the  rewiring of you and  the transition  into your spontaeous nature.
3. Take the time to experience the simplicity and the joy of the now moments.
4. Walk  and sit in nature. Talk out loud to it.
5. Be with children as a child rather than  as an adult.
6. Have Fun.  Lightgworkers are often so serious, so intense. After all the word is “light” not “heavy” workers. Be ye not so ‘heavenly’ bound you are no earthly use.

Innocence can bee seen both in the presence of an awake human (someone we might call enlightened) and our children. Both are filled with exhuberance for life. They are radically present and unaware of past or future. Both have a capacity for joy in the beauty and freshness of life as they find it. Both delight in the mystery of who it is that peers at the world with unveiled eyes. Both are 100% committed to living life fully and savouring every precious moment. Your liberation is found in this 100% commitment to heal yourself.
And so dear angels, take back your inner child and truly claim your birthright.

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